Jamal Bonner

The last of the poems. I want the book to be out already!!!

My demon

The preacher preached and promised me non promising predictions with hopes of pulling me in, closer to the pulpit,
I smirked at his bullshit, and false presumptions of my lifes outcomes,
That day I lost interest in church, but I know in my heart is where god resides and she takes my side, I'll walk blindly to the edge for my faith, As long as I know she protects me,
Passing around lies to fill the collection plate, I paid attention rather than pass out funds for a bigger building, faster car, more fibs claiming to be fed right from the father,
I seek out to find me in her, but, she is in me so I peeked deeper within myself, only to unlock demons I practiced to put away,
Slammed doors,
I'd rather not unlock everything I fought so ferociously,
Chains with balls intact,
Demons with claws intact,
Fears I fight then relapse,
Promises I've made then relapsed,
Faces with tears attached,
Years with leers attached,
Feelings I've grown detached,
From This world around I'm detached,
I,
Detached my demons, they all mercilessly attack with meaning, I relapse and intact them back to the dugeon wall,
All to find me within me, the us within each other,
Let me take you there, where, to intervene with my demon,
I remember you well, we fell out, i had hopes of attaining you, but you lead me to, what is, well was, surely, my Demise,
Because of you my,
eyes are hollowed as the heart that beats beneath my chin, heart as dark as the eyes above my nose, eyes and heart that feel no remorse like sounds on the drums of my deaf ears, a face you'll remember, cheek less and mouth less speechless and pinched less by your evils,
Haunted by da evils, all while I flee from da evils, unknowingly fluently flowing right to da evil, devil rather, I closed the cage and climbed the ladder away,
Spewing Lies upon lies, I'll be the reason you make it she said, i am what brings peace, happiness, and warmth she said, I am all you need she whispered,
snickers left my nose, as I froze only to realize that those words weren't really lies, in order for my real eyes to embrace the she that is god for her to protect me, I'd have to embrace she that is love, the demon I'm rejecting,
Love uncontrollably, it'll come unnoticeably you'll know when it is she, don't reject it,
But me, I am not yet ready for that battle with the demon. ~

-K.B.